"I can be alone yeah, I can watch the sunset on my own, I can be alone yeah." - Kate Nash
Tidbit - Bush Sr.'s library is in College Station --
Sunday, May 9, 2010
So long College Station, TX
For the past two years, I've had the unique opportunity to be in a healthy relationship and simultaneously, be completely alone for most of my days. Honestly, it has been a liberating and wonderful chapter in my life. I may never experience this kind of solitude again. I know I will have nostalgia one day looking back on days like today, where I spent the entire day alone in my apartment drinking coffee, watching lectures, and studying...perhaps the perfect storm before things became more complex and adult-like...bye bye Presidio and College Station, TX. I didn't think I would like you as much as I did, or thought that I could actually transition into an adulthood in such a small, conservative college town (everything that I was 100% against). I am still definitely a liberal in my views, but I guess I can understand why so many people enjoy the sweetness of a small town.
"I can be alone yeah, I can watch the sunset on my own, I can be alone yeah." - Kate Nash
Tidbit - Bush Sr.'s library is in College Station --
"I can be alone yeah, I can watch the sunset on my own, I can be alone yeah." - Kate Nash
Tidbit - Bush Sr.'s library is in College Station --
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Ready made housewives
Classes are over and now I just have to study for my board exam on June 18th. Then I might go to my first wedding. It's one of Brent's coworkers but it might be fun. June 20th -- going to Athens, Greece followed by Santorini and Istanbul, which is a total of two weeks. I'm super excited but I have to survive this test first.
We had our end of year party yesterday, where med students get DOWN (ie talk about med school at a non-academic building and about how miserable we are wasting away our 20s-30s in academia). I was chatting with a Taiwanese guy named Paul about his relationship issues. He met his Taiwanese girlfriend when she was doing lab research in Houston. However, she was there temporarily and has been living in Taiwan for the past year. Apparently, she's coming back after he takes his steps and moving in with him. In other words, she is moving to nowhere, TX, USA with zero plans (work, play or otherwise) just for Paul. Also, understandably, she wants to get married. He was complaining about how stressful this all was and how there was so much pressure put on him by his girlfriend, and on top of that, just being a med student trying to get through all this alive. Someone joked that it sounded like she was ready to be a housewife and birth little Paul babies.
I get really uncomfortable when I hear stories like this. I am trying really hard to carve out my own career path so I one day can be the independent woman in one of those Destiny's Child songs. I thought perhaps this is the reason that girls who drop everything for their relationships bother me. But I don't think that's the reason. I actually have a lot of respect for women who sacrifice so much to raise their children and maintain a household. I also don't know if a career is as satisfying as I have completely idealized the concept of it to keep sane. Every success you have often equals major sacrifices elsewhere.
Maybe I hate the idea of not being in control? I guess pride plays a factor. However, I am kind of a hypocrite since Brent pays for almost everything we do together. I am living out of my means if it was just up to my measly stipend alone.
In summary, I get really confused about male/female roles as adults. Inputs?
We had our end of year party yesterday, where med students get DOWN (ie talk about med school at a non-academic building and about how miserable we are wasting away our 20s-30s in academia). I was chatting with a Taiwanese guy named Paul about his relationship issues. He met his Taiwanese girlfriend when she was doing lab research in Houston. However, she was there temporarily and has been living in Taiwan for the past year. Apparently, she's coming back after he takes his steps and moving in with him. In other words, she is moving to nowhere, TX, USA with zero plans (work, play or otherwise) just for Paul. Also, understandably, she wants to get married. He was complaining about how stressful this all was and how there was so much pressure put on him by his girlfriend, and on top of that, just being a med student trying to get through all this alive. Someone joked that it sounded like she was ready to be a housewife and birth little Paul babies.
I get really uncomfortable when I hear stories like this. I am trying really hard to carve out my own career path so I one day can be the independent woman in one of those Destiny's Child songs. I thought perhaps this is the reason that girls who drop everything for their relationships bother me. But I don't think that's the reason. I actually have a lot of respect for women who sacrifice so much to raise their children and maintain a household. I also don't know if a career is as satisfying as I have completely idealized the concept of it to keep sane. Every success you have often equals major sacrifices elsewhere.
Maybe I hate the idea of not being in control? I guess pride plays a factor. However, I am kind of a hypocrite since Brent pays for almost everything we do together. I am living out of my means if it was just up to my measly stipend alone.
In summary, I get really confused about male/female roles as adults. Inputs?
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